yesterday night I tired a pair of hotpants on I bought when I was like 14.

It fitted me perfectly and I loved those shorts so I didn’t want to throw them away after they didn’t fit me. I couldnt sleep yesterday night so I finally tried them on and they fitted! I just need to lose more flabby fat on my thights/legs and lose my ”love”-handles so I can wear I tight top with them.

this girl kind of looks like me, only MUCH skinnier, beautiful etc. i showed her my mum and said “doesn’t she look like me kind of?” and she replied: “yeah kinda, only much skinnier.” that killed me. maybe i won’t be as beautiful as her but i’ll be as skinny as her, i will be.

everytime i see a mirror i need to check how i look. conclusion today: too fat. get rid of lovehandles and bellyfat already! my hipbones need to stick out!